Shine, huh?

So, this shine thing we are here to do...gets confusing at times, huh. Shine what, the car, my shoes, the silver? I felt very dim recently, not bright at all, cloudy, actually, just plain dull, I suppose...what does it mean anyway? nothing and everything, everything and nothing. knowingly ignoring the truth is treason to one's own soul. Don't do it. Just make very sure it is your own truth and not anyone else's. Only your truth, just for you, what you believe even if no one at all agrees with you or gives you that pitiful look like," oh poor thing, someday when they are grown up and wiser or more enlightened, they will understand their folly. Someday they will eventually be smart enough to agree with me." Ha! Don't do it!! Just Be You and be happy and shine being you!!

GET IT!!!

OK, so here comes a message? just our imaginations running wild? ...is there anyone out there who really believes and understands exactly what we are doing here? Do you understand the enormity of it all? the simple truth that all this is fiction are and we are totally making all this up with our minds...sounds unreal doesn't it? just the delusions of a ranting maniac? It is true...so true... Some authors have the "nerve" to actually print it like in "the secret" and there is a big sweep of everyone "jumping" on board like Ophra and other famous people but do they really believe it or are they just being cool? Do they really take literally every single word they say as they create their reality? Everytime the words "have to" or Need to" or "should" are used you are giving your power away to an outside force that is controlling you. There is no need involved with a being that is supremely divine and on this planet simply for a game of life to have a good time. We are lacking in nothing and "need" nothing. I know it is at times a concept that is without proof you say but as you live it and believe it you will see that it is true. JUST BE

Cleaning out...

I have been going through all of mom's possessions with her letting her decide what to keep, what to throw away and who to give what to after she leaves this existence. She likes the control and I understand since so much of her current situation is out of her control (at least that is what she believes). It is a bit strange to be doing this before she departs, but it is therapeutic for her and I feel like I am accomplishing something instead of just waiting... There is so much stuff she has saved over the years...so many items that represent a special memory. I am not a saver of things. I am not attached to possessions...I love my pretties, don't get me wrong, but I can easily give them to someone else to enjoy when they have served their purpose for me and I no longer use them. I guess I don't feel the "what if I need this" that plagues so many. No more thoughts. Just Be.

Renewal

Mom is gradually becoming weaker physically and appears to be more peaceful and accepting of her approaching departure time. Her beliefs are drastically different from mine. It appears she has been struggling with what she believes for the past few months. It seems she is concerned about where she is going "heaven or hell". As I listen to her fearfulness I am grateful I no longer believe as she does. She wants to start going through all her belongings and deciding who to give them to and what to discard. This is a fabulous way for her to be in charge of her dying process and it will be greatly beneficial for me to be busy and have less decisions to make after she leaves this life. I am so greatly blessed. Today is the beginning of the letting go and renewal process. Just Be!

I am

I am being. I am learning. I am daily believing in the wonder of the universe. I am. I am joyous. I am sad. I am clear. I am confused. I am ambitious. I am immobile. I am plentiful. I am abundant. I am frustrated and ready to burst. I have so much power but it is at present locked away and stagnant. I know. I am. I am ready. Just Be.

what time is it?

I don't know. Life is feeling surreal right now. I am so... watching my mom "die" is strange. She is certainly a perplexing woman. Someday she will find peace, but apparently not in this world. I sincerely hope the next life she chooses is less challenging for her. I am grateful I chose her for my mom because she has taught me a lot. Maybe she is still here cause there is more for me to learn. Mostly I have learned what I don't want to do with my life. I choose happiness, joy, gratitude and blessings beyond measure. I believe in magical possibilities and creating...the sky's not the limit!! Blessings during the week ahead as you experience the life you have chosen and are continually creating moment by moment!! Make it fabulous!!

Life or not...

I have been being a hermit for almost a week, not sure why or if I am even OK. Well, of course I am OK but this is a weird time in my life that I seem content to just sit and wait. Wait for my life to be my own and not someone else's. No it is mine, these are my choices that I make to help people in my life I love and that is an OK life to choose. What I am convincing myself of right now is that it is OK to JUST BE and not always be doing. Very challenging. I think our self worth is derived from what we accomplish and do and not just simply who and what we are...divine beings that are here on a wonderful journey, adventure called life. This is my golden opportunity to truly prove I believe what I say...JUST BE.

nothing to say

Well, i haven't had anything to say today apparently until now and I am still not sure I have anything to say other than I don't really have anything to say. I feel hermit like and I think I am ok with that. It has been raining so much that I don't know if the rain makes me want to stay in or if I already want to stay in and the rain is a good reason to stay in. There are errands I could go do but nothing terribly urgent and I have not been at all motivated to do or go anywhere. This will pass and once again I will join in the out and about of life, but for today I am in. I am in sweats, comfy and in...nothing to say...

WROUGHT WITH INDECISION

Are you? I have been for a while now...what do I do...where do I go...when will I be...How do I decide? Oh so many questions to be decided upon. JUST BE
Oh so many options for happiness, sadness, nessness. JUST BE
What will I do tomorrow, tonight, today, ever???? JUST BE
When will the madness stop or the delusion end??? JUST BE
Follow the yellow brick road!! Life is not a heavy load!! JUST BE

I accomplished the food gathering amid the rain, thunder and then for a little variety, Mother Nature pelted me with hail!! It was awe inspiring!! What an interesting phenomena!! If everything in nature truly has a purpose, and I believe so, then I wonder what the purpose of hail is!?! Maybe, it is for my amusement!! The bits of hail were sorta cone shaped, not even fully developed balls... like they fell to earth before they had time to completely form!! Some were on my coat and I examined them until they melted of course. Now, the sun is shining. Nature is feeling fickle today. That's OK, we all have our periods of indecision!! She must be trying lots of different skills and powers just now, having a bit of magical fun!! Slow down, you move to fast...gotta make the moment last!!

I did it!! It is a rainy day... I love the sound of the rain, washing everything away. It feels so peaceful and soothing. I am very grateful I don't have to join the thousands of commuters driving in it to scamper to work. I am sitting with a cup of coffee, thinking about what I will do today. I have a grocery list that once purchased will enable me to create some yummy soups. Perfect fare for a rainy, cold day. Comfort. I am grateful for all the blessings in my life and especially for another day to enjoy. Find something to be grateful for everyday!! Tell the universe thank you for all she provides and reach for the stars. Love and blessings be with you as you travel through your day.